When Things Get Hard, Push Through

January 20, 2017 made 3 years since the day I decided to live a healthy lifestyle and set out a weight loss goal. That day in 2013, I woke up determined to change my life for many reasons, and within 9 months my 50 pounds I set out to lose was gone, but I still had a few pounds to lose until I reached my ultimate goal.

The past few months have been a fail in my journey, this is the most time I've been away from the gym while eating and drinking whatever I want. I truly fell off. It seemed like every time I was getting back into being motivated I just couldn't. In the past 2 months I've probably cried more than I've cried in my entire lifetime because I was dealing with a situation that I sort of let over power everything else in my life. I read a quote about a Capricorn that said, "When a Capricorn is hurt everything that used to be important to them won't be anymore and they'll just kind of shut down in every aspect." When I say this is me, THIS IS ME. I shut down and threw everything to the side, which was selfish because I know that my job is to inspire and motivate people. It's amazing how much I started looking at things different and how much I learned about myself from the situation. 

When I say this smile on my face in these pictures was not here for a while, BELIEVE ME. Everyone deals with things differently, but what I can say is that whatever may be causing you stress in your life whether it be a relationship, a friendship, family, school, or anything, remember the positive things in your life. It can be easy to shut down, but what does shutting down do for you and your goals? Nothing. I did it, but I don't want anyone else to do that, especially when you have to build yourself back up. 

However, with only a few months left until graduation, and so many things I have planned for 2017 it is time to gain my motivation back in my journey. 2017 is the year my journey has to end and be about maintaining and following other plans I have in the health/fitness world. It's been a roller coaster ride for 4 years, and I know what I have to do. It's what I'm going to do. 

My main goal is to get to my goal weight and eat what I know I need to eat while working out hard. Interestingly enough, after my Las Vegas trip which consisted of drinking alcohol every single day and partying hard to celebrate my 21st birthday, I lost 6 pounds. I questioned it, but then I accepted it and took that as I sign to get back into the swing of things. I will now be more consistent when posting about fitness on here, I'll share what's working for me and some personal challenges that I'll be doing that I'd love for others to join in hopes of reaching their goals. So, here's to 2017 and finally reaching that fitness goal I set out 4 years ago as a freshman in college.